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“You alright?” he asked as we were leaving the meeting, I replied “yeah I’m fine”

We walked out to our cars in the parking lot and he came up beside me and asked again. “You sure you’re ok?” He was looking down at my feet. I realized then he was referring to my pimp walk.

“Oh yeah, I have cerebral palsy” I told him.

“Ohhh…” he said and slowed his pace as I continued to my car.

Sometimes I forget, or just don’t realize that to the outside world I appear different, walk different. I felt kinda bad because I think people are caught off guard when I tell them I have CP, like they feel guilty for asking and pity when they find out. I don’t want them to feel that way. I know its honest concern on their part or even just curiosity at times. It’s human nature to question something when its out of the norm. For me though, having CP is normal.

In the past I’ve thought of putting out there right off the bat. Like during introductions “Hi, I’m Lennie and I have CP” but that sounds kinda AA meeting-ish. I don’t want to put it in the forefront like that’s what I’m all about. It’s something I was born with, something that I live with, but it doesn’t define who I am. Or does it?

It is a part of me. I am who I am and I think the way I do partly because I’ve experienced life with it. On good days I embrace it, on bad days I cry about it. I don’t think I would be me without it.

In the past year I’ve started to change my view about it. I used to think having CP was a disability, the result of negligence by a doctor, but I’m learning that perhaps its a blessing. A ┬áblessing from God.

“I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works.” -Psalm 139:14

This had to be done, it was that serious.



Gwen: So I told my mom you went to church…

Len: Oh for real?

Gwen: Yeah and then she said “where Chuch’s Chicken?”

Len: hahahahahh omgosh! I love her

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